This post was supposed to be a cheerful, excited outlook into the job I’m starting today, my first ‘real’ job in seven years. But, sorry, there’s some real truths mixed up here. We keep trying to tiptoe around the hard things as gracefully as dad did but it just leads to questions I can’t answer, and there’s so much behind the scenes. I keep having to make bummer posts, I’m not a fan. Hopefully next update will be actually a good one, it helps to put the cards on the table so improvements don’t sound like negatives down the line.
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Our rent is going up substantially (Woohoo), groceries are getting somehow even more expensive, and the Patreon loses income every month. The file hosting for the site is running actively out of space, and I have little to no free time.<\/p>\n
That isn’t to say\u00a0 my writing here won’t continue, or that I won’t keep duct taping the backend so the site stays alive, and especially <\/em>not to get sympathy or more money from the pockets of the people who are already keeping the community alive by just being a part of it(I really, really mean that, dad never wanted to ask for anything from his readership, that at least I can continue).<\/p>\n I just want to be clear honestly that I’m doing my absolute best. I’m just currently bailing a sinking ship, and this job should help stop the leak.<\/p>\n It wasn’t empty platitudes when I said I wanted to pay to get the site updated. I really wanted to update this place and fully reform it so it could stop breaking, but the full site move over with keeping everything intact is very…very expensive, and complex. I didn’t even get access to the Patreon until it started to decline actively, which came at the same time as our breakup with Charlie, and addition to my youngest brother to the home. Issac is wonderful, clever, the perfect addition to our family, and second level autistic. This means he doesn’t have meltdowns in grocery stores and he’s not nonverbal, but his social interactions are very limited. Second level autism is a disability which requires substantial support, and right now we don’t know if he’ll ever be able to live alone successfully. I’m working on getting him diagnosed and getting him disability, but there’s a lot of steps along the way. I’m the only one of us who even has their GED, vaccinations, or even regular routine doctors appointments until moving in. I am the eldest, and I am trying my best to give my boys the start I didn’t get. This goes so far beyond just money problems. We don’t have either of our parents, and I’m trying to juggle a lot of eggs and a lot of baskets. I am currently a full time caretaker, educator, housewife, and writer. And all of that is before even getting this job.<\/p>\n This isn’t my first job<\/em> in seven years, obviously. I’ve done a lot of freelance, but I haven’t actually had a typical thing that’s easy to put on taxes. Hopefully even a basic retail job will help us climb out of this, and I’ll be able to put more into this place. Slowly this has become less of an obligation and wanting to keep dad alive in some little bit, to being a place I actually am looking forward to writing for each week. I don’t want it to go anywhere either. There just might be even more breaks coming up due to a work schedule hitting the pile.<\/p>\n -Bay<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" This post was supposed to be a cheerful, excited outlook into the job I’m starting today, my first ‘real’ job in seven years. But, sorry, there’s some real truths mixed up here. We keep trying to tiptoe around the hard things as gracefully as dad did but it just leads to questions I can’t answer, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":9,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[618],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-57511","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-epilogue"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/57511","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/9"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=57511"}],"version-history":[{"count":8,"href":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/57511\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":57525,"href":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/57511\/revisions\/57525"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=57511"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=57511"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=57511"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}