{"id":54640,"date":"2022-08-24T14:18:50","date_gmt":"2022-08-24T18:18:50","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/?p=54640"},"modified":"2022-08-27T12:30:59","modified_gmt":"2022-08-27T16:30:59","slug":"ding-51","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/?p=54640","title":{"rendered":"Ding&#8230;51"},"content":{"rendered":"<h1><\/h1>\n<p>So, dad would be 51 today. Last year today he said this:<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;The running joke is that every year I make a birthday post about how I&#8217;m getting old and I&#8217;m going to be dead any minute now. I try to find some sort of humorous way to joke about death or aging and then maybe follow it up with a sarcastic remark about <i>Half-Life 3<\/i>. It&#8217;s a funny tradition<span class='snote' title='1'>Funny according to the standards set on this site, anyway. YMMV.<\/span> but I&#8217;m just not feeling it this year. So let&#8217;s have a serious conversation about my health. &#8220;<\/p>\n<p>Well, he said a lot more than that, but copy-pasting the whole post word-for-word feels like a lot.<\/p>\n<p>Here&#8217;s something you&#8217;re about to hear from me a lot; grieving for a funny person is <em>hard<\/em>. It might be why, despite leading the charge for wanting us<span class='snote' title='2'>My mom, my two brothers and myself.<\/span> to keep up the site&#8230;nothing much has happened so far.<span class='snote' title='3'>Well, nothing from me or my brothers, my mom is absolutely getting shit done<\/span> Don&#8217;t get me wrong, we&#8217;ve moved across states, dealt with funeral arrangements, and all those other little things you don&#8217;t really consider until someone dies&#8230;<span class='snote' title='4'>At the time of writing this, when you Google &#8216;what happens to your Steam account when you die&#8217; you get hilariously, satirically, wrong information. So <em>this<\/em> is why my collage profs didn&#8217;t want me &#8216;just Googling it&#8217;.<br \/>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/08\/Capture.png\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-54643\" src=\"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/08\/Capture-300x98.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"300\" height=\"98\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/08\/Capture-300x98.png 300w, https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/08\/Capture-1024x336.png 1024w, https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/08\/Capture-768x252.png 768w, https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/08\/Capture.png 1266w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/span>.<\/p>\n<p><!--more--><\/p>\n<p>We&#8217;re busy, but, I&#8217;m also half-bedridden, bored, and wanting to make some sort of content. <em>Why can&#8217;t I just sit down and get something done?\u00a0<\/em>Well, besides the obvious &#8216;<em>my dad died&#8217; <\/em>excuse, there is a bigger issue here. He was funny, and I like to think he raised me to be funny too. And grieving for someone funny is <em>hard, especially\u00a0in public<\/em>. And I don&#8217;t know if any of you noticed this wild idea, but the internet is a pretty public place.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s one thing when Aunt Janet sees you cracking up laughing at a funeral, she&#8217;s cranky, but whatever. It&#8217;s a whole other thing to put it on the internet, forever.<\/p>\n<p>There is a certain finesse to it, when is it time to look solemn? When is it a good time to crack your &#8216;he liked to write humorous content for his birthday, I hope he&#8217;s ok with my <em>post<\/em>&#8211;<em>humorous <\/em>content&#8217; joke?<span class='snote' title='5'><\/strong> Get it? Posthumous? (The answer to my rhetorical there is <em>never, FYI. Don&#8217;t crack that joke.)<\/em><\/span> Besides, I&#8217;m not a columnist like he was. I&#8217;m at best the highly-online-nerd he was himself in his twenties. Due to the laws of the universe, he had some years on me, years he spent learning to create content for <em>this audience<\/em>.<\/p>\n<p>So he dropped the mic, I picked it up and looked around at his group of varied PC gamer communities&#8230;Sue me, it feels a little wrong to just lean in while we&#8217;re still planning the funeral and go &#8216;Hey guys&#8230;you wanna watch me&#8230;livestream The Sims 4?&#8217; Yeah, maybe not.<\/p>\n<p>Is it the time to mention I&#8217;m very gay? He never mentioned me much, mostly to protect me from the horrors of the internet. But, uh, I feel like if I&#8217;m going to be trying to be making content over here we should probably get that out of the way. So, hi Internet, I&#8217;m Shamus Young&#8217;s oldest child, Bay, a currently 24-year-old they\/them bisexual with <em>two <\/em>happy life partners<em><span class='snote' title='6'>Bit novel, I know, but is it any shock that such a off-the-beaten-path guy raised an outside-the-box kid?<\/span><\/em> . I hope you all like rhythm games, The Sims, and Animal Crossing. I&#8217;d crack a joke about disappointing all of you like I disappointed my father, but he was actually pretty supportive, so there goes that bit, oh noooo?<\/p>\n<p>In all seriousness, it&#8217;s been feeling like a lose-lose. Either I make content like he did and feel like I&#8217;m forever in his shadow, or I make my own stuff and ruin a legacy almost as old as myself. But truthfully, outside of a bubble of self-doubt, it&#8217;s more of a self-sufficient biome. If I make content and it doesn&#8217;t appeal to anyone, I eventually take the hint and leave it alone, letting his site stand on it&#8217;s own or with more serious reflective, content. If my content <em>does<\/em> appeal to someone&#8230;Well, I don&#8217;t know, I suppose I&#8230;make more?<\/p>\n<p>Happy birthday, Dad.\u00a0 Hope I do anything right by your hard work here, and, if not, that you rolling in your grave is pretty fun for you. Seems enriching, at least?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>So, dad would be 51 today. Last year today he said this: &#8220;The running joke is that every year I make a birthday post about how I&#8217;m getting old and I&#8217;m going to be dead any minute now. 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