{"id":1401,"date":"2007-11-01T07:00:58","date_gmt":"2007-11-01T12:00:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/?p=1401"},"modified":"2007-11-01T07:00:58","modified_gmt":"2007-11-01T12:00:58","slug":"the-capricious-nature-of-motivation-meh","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/?p=1401","title":{"rendered":"The Capricious Nature of Motivation. (Meh.)"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Yesterday I crossed the finish line on a Big Project at work.  It&#8217;s been requiring some overtime and after a couple of weeks of being &#8220;two days&#8221; from the end I was really starting to fatigue.  Hopefully my sour mood didn&#8217;t come through on the site.  <\/p>\n<p>I managed to get through this while keeping up with stuff like this for Chainmail Bikini, meeting my output goals for this website, and still get in some family time here and there.  Still, I&#8217;ve been looking forward to a break, and for a chance to pursue some side projects that got pushed to the back burner. So now the Big Project at work is (in theory) done and now I can finally get around to&#8230; <\/p>\n<p>Erm. Nothing, really.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m sitting here with a good three hours to burn any way I dang well please, and I can&#8217;t think of a thing in the world I want to do.  I have a programming \/ research \/ learning project I&#8217;ve been <i>itching<\/i> to work on, and now I don&#8217;t even have the energy to try and express my abiding apathy for the thing.  I have anime here &#8211; <i>good<\/i> anime &#8211; which I don&#8217;t want to watch.  I have a <a href=\"?p=1367\">pile of games<\/a> here I don&#8217;t want to play.  Even &#8220;surfing the web&#8221; seems like a chore, and  that&#8217;s the twenty-first century equivalent of channel surfing &#8211; just click, click, click through the disposable hours by searching out easy-to-digest entertainment.  The condition of being &#8220;too bored to surf the web&#8221; is just one step away from &#8220;catatonic&#8221;. <\/p>\n<p>This is frustrating.  I&#8217;m going to pass the time staring at the ceiling, but Real Soon Now I&#8217;m going to wish I could have these hours back. Here I am with the vast riches of unallotted time, and I can&#8217;t even work up the energy to feel apathetic about the lack of guilt I&#8217;m experiencing over all of the things I&#8217;m not working on. In fact, I&#8217;m so lazy right now that I&#8217;m not even going to fix the previous train wreck of a sentence.<\/p>\n<p>And not only am I wasting a bunch of <i>my<\/i> time, but I&#8217;ve just now wasted a couple of minutes of yours.  Oops!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Yesterday I crossed the finish line on a Big Project at work. It&#8217;s been requiring some overtime and after a couple of weeks of being &#8220;two days&#8221; from the end I was really starting to fatigue. Hopefully my sour mood didn&#8217;t come through on the site. I managed to get through this while keeping up [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[16],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1401","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-personal"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1401","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1401"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1401\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1401"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1401"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.shamusyoung.com\/twentysidedtale\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1401"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}